Movies where I was
gross sobbingemotionally invested (x)
Revolutionary Road, 2008
Is it weird that I am more insecure about guys being in to complete strangers via social media and images that are air brushed than if I were to see them check a girl out on the street? Social media just honestly makes me feel like complete crap about myself. Even though the images are most likely fake and that I know these bodies aren’t realistically attainable, it still brings me down to see it and know that I will never look like that. I don’t think our society is conducive to allowing any girl to have a positive body image. I have people comment all the time on how thin I am, and it honestly sucks. And I know some of them probably look at me the way I look at the girls in the pictures. I just wish we could all love our bodies for what they are. I also wish that I didn’t have such shitty self esteem when it comes to how I look. The worst thing is that I don’t know if ill ever really be happy with myself physically and that terrifies me to acknowledge I feel this way, especially considering my educational background. I just wish things were different. And I wish I could change how I feel but I’ve probably never been happy with my body, which is also sad to acknowledge. The grass is always greener I suppose.